Showing posts with label staying alone. Show all posts
Showing posts with label staying alone. Show all posts

Thursday, December 26, 2013

The Friend You Took For Granted




“No, I will not go for his dinner invitation. Not even if he puts up my plate the usual way he does”, “How dare he call me now, only three days before to break the news!”, she repeats in her head for one more time as stations pass by her. She’s in the jungle’s fanciest ride till date and yet still ‘trying’ to like it. But the kid in front of her is assuring with his unadulterated grin. Like he also shares the secret. Her secret. Their secret.

She tries to remember what was the moment that turned Little Wench and Old-World Sloth into friends. The common factor was a guy she hated and he loved. Soon, they were neighbours and colleagues who smirked at each other’s romances (or the lack of it) and had dinner together.

There was a new-found delight in taking shots at each other which gave grave concerns a casual air. In the Concrete City, where both of them were outsiders, he was the constant companion she never invited but inevitably celebrated every occasion/attended any party with.


She snarled at how he was a housewife-in-prep and he came to pack her up to his place when her apartment became a boat with a hole. She tricked him into giving occasional foot massages and he stayed up entire night talking to his fiancé when she needed to pull off an all-nighter for that office report. He smelled, loved and smelled her hair often and in return, she called him a creepy guy whenever she could.

His dinner invitation to her included him mixing rice and gravy Andhra style with his hands and making small balls of it, decorated on the outline of the plate. And she ate heartily with a boasting smirk and hidden delight. She, in turn, taught him how to imagine apple juice like it is flavoured wine during crisis and actually get high on it!


But for the love of God, she still can’t remember that moment. What she can remember is that Old-World Sloth is now married and about to become a doting father. The Old-World Sloth hasn’t shared a smoke with her in a long time. And the Old-World Sloth is now leaving the city for good.

When the Wench wakes up next morning, there is this sudden urge bubbling in her. Thanks to the wild gooseberries from Jungle she loves, things hit her late. She frantically searches for her eternally damned phone, calls him, and tells him she’s going to come to the Concrete City to see him. Even if it’s just a 10-minute thing. He leaves tomorrow and has a lot on his hands. But she isn’t listening; but he still invites.




The day is ending very slowly. “What would I say when I see him? What would I do if he panics? What could we eat together?” Fretting, she tells herself to shut up when there’s a call just when she’s about to leave.

Old world: Dude, werrr are you?
Wench: Just about to start.? Why were you not answering my call? I was going to check if chocolate is fine or wine.
Old World: Actually, I got stuck. Something needed to be taken care of. And urmm, I am running terribly behind time right now.
Wench: Oh, you’re really short on time?
Old World: No, actually yes. I would love to meet you but not like this. But anyway, tell me what time do you reach here?
Wench: You know what, let’s drop it. It would only get more hectic for you. And anyway, not like I was dying to see you. I will see you some other time soon.
Old World: You do know there would be no ‘soon’ again?
Wench: Yes. But saying soon sounds better.
Old World: I will call you once I reach my new home.
Wench: Of course. Take care, creepy guy.

As she hurriedly hangs up, she realizes she’s choking with something tangible in her throat. And something warm and gushing in her eyes.

Friends, no matter how predictable, annoying or routine they become; are friends and should be treated as nothing less than that. They may not be the one who hold your hand at the aisle or serve you dinner when you get home tired but they absolutely are a large part of what makes you ‘you’.

With a now-free hour to kill at her disposal, she packs her bag and heads to the popcorn guy.



*Just for this post, Little Wench is not Little Wench but Eva Mendes.

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Because whoever said it's just a dog, obviously never petted one!

Yes I know i come back to this picture a lot, but this is among my all-time favourites! Tozz and me, having our 'What am I' moment at Triund Peak.

And her eyes are wide open again. She searches for her cell phone in the dim light floating around in her room from the night lamp rock at the corner. The night lamp was one of the many birthday gifts from Diplomatic Witch, and according to her excited story and the shopkeeper’s fancy tale, the rock was a piece originally brought from Antarctica which apart from melting/corroding in rains, spread positive vibes and ate up nightmares of those using it. Every time the Wench thinks of the story, she can’t help but get amused. “Eating up the nightmares, what a fancy superpower!” “What if another night lamp could eat up bad memories too!”

“3.55 A.M”, flashes the cell phone, forcing her to twitch her eyes as the light from cell phone hits her hard. Why would you get up at 3.55 A.M when you slept at 2.10 A.M after finishing FRIENDS-season 6 for the nth time! But that’s her, liking something too much or not at all.

Her flat mate can still be occasionally heard giggling every now and then in the background. It’s her weekly boyfriend night after all when he comes over. He’s also the one who eyes Wench suspiciously as some psycho-lesbian chick for some unknown reason!

She looks around to get familiarize with the setting. It’s been 2 months and she’s still getting used to the fact that she stays all by herself now in the same city, all away from her jungle and her parents despite being the super protective child.

The lovely room has all stuff of basic necessities along with a chain of twinkie-lights hung on one wall highlighting the weird looking chart she’s pasted on it. (Now that’s a nice ‘My Bar’ Paharganj touch, I would say!) A bottle of water, a make-fold ash tray and dear, old Snoopy lies right under her bed on the side towards the door, making it perfect winters for her!

The photogenic cool dog who posed on a high wall for us at Mcleodganj!

Eyes wide open again! Only this time, she can feel something warm, wet and rough on her right hand. Okay no, now it’s fuzzy and warm. And now, there is this strange sound. Forcing just one of her eyes to open, she finds Snoopy up as the morning sun, trying to wake her up with her tongue-n-rub routine! She can easily tell it’s well past 7 with the sunshine and Snoopy’s restlessness.

“Go away, Snoopy. Play with your mistress.” she pleads while digging her face deeper into her pillow turning onto her stomach. To which, Snoopy gives a ‘i-don’t-care’ look with a small moan and gets to it again. She knows it too well by now what gets Wench up. To and fro, fro and fro, a little jiggle game and she’s all up!

Snoopy has always loved back rubbing sessions. That’s the third thing anyone has ever seen her react to (after mangoes and Wench’s entrance every evening i.e) Every morning however, with her wet, warm nose she’ll pick on Wench’s hand hanging out of the bed. Once she maintains the balance, she’ll throw the hand up in the air with the proficiency of the famous circus clown who juggles bottles. By the time the hand comes down, keeping her timing perrrfect, she’ll glide three steps ahead so that the hand falls just upon her lower back. Her perfect hot-dog like shape and size helps in making the strategy only perfect.

Once the hand is set on the back, she starts moving one step forward, one step backward. Forward, backward. Backward, forward. Like she’s making you rub her back, reminding you the need to be petted, loved and assured. And coming out with that need of hers so courageously, so demandingly, like she isn’t afraid of putting her vulnerable side in front of you. Like she trusts you enough to put it out like that. Just like it should be, with everyone. Fretting, Wench would give in, get up, and give her a heavy back-rubbing session while showering abuses and pecks together combined.


The furry, werewolf-like mountain dog I met up in the hills. It took me 15 minutes and some intense communication to get his approval to touch him. Some experience!

Wench doesn’t really remember how and when Snoopy left her real mistress and adopted Wench as her part-time mistress and companion. Only few weeks back, she used to be this hesitant, aloof dog out of the three ridiculous looking dogs Wench’s flatmate owned- Coochie, Naughty and Snoopy (No offence, but what ridiculous names, I swear!)

While one was a cocker spaniel who was an impulse buy by the flatmate, the other one was a ‘loving’ gift by her (then) boyfriend. (p.s: The new one doesn’t like dogs, at all! And since he doesn’t know exactly which one was gifted by the then boyfriend, he hates them all as a rule.)

Amidst all this, Snoopy was an adopted case and the only female in that weird pack of dogs. She was new, she was scared and she was hesitant. The flatmate was a self-confessed animal lover and stayed home full-time with them, but Snoopy just had hard time trusting people.

Caramel coloured cocker Spaniard with an enviable flair when she walks, she picked Wench instantly after showing indifference for a week. Now every evening, after Wench finished her dinner with the flatmate and her occasionally frequent guests and moved to her room, Snoopy picked up her pace and followed her as a ritual to her room.

She would never shower affection like other two dogs on Wench, but just be there. Wench goes to the living room, she follows. She tip-toes to kitchen for a mid-night snack, she will alarmingly get an idea, wake up and follow her for her share. Wench can’t sleep and decides to sit in the front yard at 2 A.M, she’ll make a face, yawn, get up and sit next to her leaving the cozy room. 

If another animal or a guest took a fancy to Wench’s room, she makes it her job to keep them out and if not possible, show her displeasure at it!
But of course, she always made it clear that despite all the affection, mangoes came before the Wench for her.